The Unbearable Lightness of Pain

I decided to turn my life around in order to understand a deeper sense of human nature and our interaction with nature itself.  My training as a “real” medicine man, a Curandero, and as a traditional healer in my family’s lineage only provides a door way to explore this subject matter.

Bazi GroundSpring

I was speaking with my mother on the phone the other day.  She was telling me about her karate class, (she is a 9th degree black belt in Okinawa Kenpo), and she was relating to me the course of the day and how class went.  She usually does not divulge about students partially since she has been teaching karate for over 30 years, it probably has become quite ordinary and kind of not very interesting for her.

Today was different.

She told me of young a eight year old boy who recently joined her karate class.  This boy’s mother and step father had recently been arrested for drug possession, harboring illegal undocumented workers and other charges assorted around firearms and distribution of said firearms.  This young child had seen two of his cousins shot in front of him, his mother arrested (and literally) torn from his arms and he has never met his biological father.  Remember, as of last week, he is only 8 years old.   She asked me to pray for him, and to use the Cura power I was blessed with.

BaZi GroundSpring Pedro Jaramillo

Don Pedro Jaramillo c. 1899, Falfurrias, Texas

Our conversations end due to the usual circumstances, (a patient walks in the clinic, my kids are saying  to me RATHER LOUDLY “hey dad” or the bat phone starts ringing)- so my mother and I say our prayers for “be seeing you soon,” and we hang up the phones.  Today,  I was reminded once again that if I am looking for a sense of validation or that I want to indulge in some kind of self-gratifying activity, I don’t have time.  There are things that need to be done.  Food that needs to be ordered. Cura that needs action, and corrective action at that.  I do not state this as an issue of self-importance, it is the life of traditional Curandero.

BaZi Bat phone GroundSpring

I would like two tacos please, with the “red” sauce.

The Life Reading

What is a BaZi consultation or a Life Reading worth?  How important do you think your decisions you make will impact your life?  How do you know you are where you are supposed to be now?  These are questions that we think of every day, even if we are not conscious of these thoughts.  If you want to heal know yourself a little more today-everyday. 

BaZi Crossroads

Your Spirit is a Living System

East Asian Metaphysics and the many forms of Curanderismo are living systems. This essentially means they are not from aliens from outer space and they do not remain stagnant and unchanged overtime.  This means overtime, the 12 Palaces of the Ming Gong in your BaZi chart may change in emphasis of value from generation to generation- to put it another way- women in Ming Dynasty China generally were not primary source of income for a family (even though like women everywhere they did most of the ‘work.’) In the United States of America today, for example, more women attend college than men and more increasing amount of women have become the primary sources of income in their household.  Even in the rubric of Chinese Metaphysics the role of women and gender associated functions of the past, well.. remain in the past.  An adequate BaZi expert knows how to differentiate the calculation with our changing modern era.

BaZi for the Rest of Us

Today, the evaluation of your BaZi chart is more accessible than during the Qing Dynasty time of ancient China.  As a client, the person should be sure the BaZi consultant explains the flow of your Qi Phases, Shen Sha, Ming Gong and the Marching Years evaluation based on East Asian Metaphysics logic and framework.  Do not accept the excuse of ‘ancient Chinese secret’ as a reason why your consultant cannot adequately explain to you a simple process of Five Elements or Yin Yang change.  Just because your expert decides to explain the essence of the Metal element in both Daoist and Buddhist Qigong frameworks doesn’t mean they know what is actually being derived and calculated within your Four Pillars BaZi Chart.  It may sound awesome, esoteric and but it still does relay to you the parameters your timeline in the Great Life Pulse, and therefore you are unable to assess your “Luck.”

Your subconscious is your greatest doctor

The more we access our own spirituality and healing power the more we understand that life is too short.  The late Sun Dance Chief Phil Crazy Bull once told me, “Gonzo, be good or be good at it.  You cannot worry what others may think or about what you do.  Do the ceremony you perform or healing traditions that you revive.  It’s in your family. It’s in your blood. But- It’s not about you, it’s not about the haters. It’s about the Wakan, the Creator above us, below us, around us and in us.”  I know in some native circles,  Chief Crazy Bull was not respected due to the fact he educated non-Natives.  As these critics continued to lambast people who were sincerely interested in praying in a native indigenous way, it turns out the very critics became what they most despised: greedy, hateful and eventually mistrusted even by their own native tribes for embezzling funds or “stealing medicine” from their respective tribal members.

God Bless the Dead

We as Apache people, as Curanderos, as anyone who has faced adversity in their life can understand the want and need for hope and for purpose.  In the end, no matter who wants to claim ownership on spirituality, time in the end will always tells us who is in charge.

BaZi Groundspring

I spoke with my mom today and asked about the boy.  She said he was in class yesterday and she noticed he was getting worse.  He was spiraling down.  He seemed distraught and very “spacey” according to my mom.  She asked him what was the matter, he replied, “I just want to get arrested and go to jail so I can be with my mom.  I miss her so much.  She is all I know and I don’t know anything else.”  My mom responds, “How about a Popsicle?”  In true 8-year-old boy fashion, he perks up “Yes! Thank you Sensei!”

And I’m grindin’ until I’m tired They say, “You ain’t grindin’ until you tired” So I’m grindin’ with my eyes wide Looking to find a way through the day
A life for the night Dear Lord, you’ve done took so many of my people But I’m just wonderin’ why You haven’t taken my life? Like what the hell am I doing right? My life

Sometimes there is no direct answer.  Whether it be love, romance, poetry or our songs we hum to ourselves the Unbearable Lightness of Pain weighs on my mind every day.

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